To Trust and Love.

These times are tough. They are only going to get tougher. I need to be able to get through them in order for me to realize that I can trust another person. I don’t know why it is so tough. We had a talk the other day and I really found comfort in that. I was told everything I needed to hear. You keep telling me that you would never do anything to hurt me and for some reason it doesn’t seem like that is enough. I wish it was. I find hope though. I find hope in that one day I will be free of this fear, and hurt. I find hope in the idea of being able to trust another person completely and love unconditionally, with my entire heart and soul. I understand that love is a process and it takes time, more than ever before. This is a big step and I believe that it will make us stronger if I let it. I need to find enjoyment in something else besides being with you. The resentment will then disappear into the night like the sun does over the horizon.

We need to learn to trust and love. So much time is spent on wanting something and we don’t appreciate what we have. To the people who need some hope, something to help you get through a day that seems never ending, I am with you. We can, and will fight this struggle of life together. I believe that is the only way to tackle it, together. I wish that one day I am more comfortable with myself and not be so quick to judge others. It is either going to happen, or it isn’t. Me sitting here worrying is not going to change that. So move, find your passion, go find what makes you happy. She will be there in the end, waiting for you. With arms wide open, telling you that “I told you so.”

I am thankful for everyone in my life who has made me smile.
This goes out to you guys.